What I've learned about friends

I think this is one of those post where you actually get to put it all out there and let people know how you feel. I struggle with friendships. Always feeling like I give, give give and then often times not getting anything back. I am a extremely loyal friend and also wear my heart on my sleeve and my feelings get hurt easily. I think one thing I have learned through this health transformation is to just go day by day and don't let people get you down

After having my second son and weighing about a miserable 255 I had lots of mommy friends. I think we could all relate to being bigger, tired and well new moms. We would often get together and do the playgroup thing and eat and drink coffee. Don't get me wrong, I loved it. My kids loved it and I truly got to experience the stay at home mom life. Then something happened, I joined the gym, I met new friends that could relate to me, where I was going and motivate me along the way.

I think the hard part was I changed, I changed for the better, I gained confidence, I learned a lot about myself and I was happy. I know I became a different person, one that could run with her kids and swing them around without feeling winded. I guess what I am saying is I lost many of those mommy friends and I am still not sure what to think about it. I still did meet ups, still went to girls nights but slower and slower I wasn't invited to things anymore. My "new" friends became my rocks and who I went to.

I live in a small town and still see all of these ladies, I still connect with many of them but it's just different, So I guess one thing I have learned is people are in your life for a reason. New friends to help you through having a newborn and being a new stay at home mom, to new friends that help you to stay motivated and lift you up, then there are your forever friends who are there for everything. Through health, life and to have a glass of wine with you when things just don't go as planned! These are the friends I hold close to my heart, ones that I love dearly.

I think women and friendships are hard, we all know we can be mean, and just plain ugly but when you find good ones stick with them and for me I need to let go of the past and move forward. Hopefully some of them can do the same :)